酒精啊,我依然需要你

去年在機場買了你,只是習慣性的舉動. 
我以為我不再那樣的需要你了.
我以為買了也不懂甚麼時候喝.
沒想到...不需要你,是不可能的.

罵我吧. 我無所謂.好無所謂.

這是回到原點嗎?

續上課以後, 第一次因情緒,失控而宿醉. 這個月剛好又是一周年, 差一次joining,就滿一個圈, 12次. 這意味桌甚麼? 放棄吧? 一片片亂碼依然在心中掙扎著. 碎片屏不起答案.

生.老.病.死.

依然屬於我最強悍的致命傷.

對不起.

請打開心去感受 愛

Dear God,

     Please open my heart and let me feel the love that is all around me. I'm being loved, but I don't feel it. I'm blessed, but I just felt so untrue. why? I know my heart is closed for some reason, and I know it is my responsibility to it. Please guide me.