I'm sorry that i fear

I'm sorry for having so many nightmares.
I'm sorry you didn't have a beautiful life.
I'm sorry that you are born.
I'm sorry that you have to go through all this.

and I'm sorry for being afraid of you.
that i dare not hug you when I'm in fear.
that i fear u push me away again and again.
that i begin to fear to try to communicate.